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It’s Windy Out, And I Need To Go To The Gym…

So even though she is blatantly cheating on him, he is going to give her a second chance.  I am mean BLATANTLY.  The other guy was still living there.  Seriously.  And she has the engagement ring back on her finger.  Gah! 
What makes me laugh is that he was surprised that we were less forgiving than his parents after he told us what he was going to do.  Really?  Did you really think that I was just going to sit there and go "Ok good luck and yes I will still be in the wedding party?"  Hah. 
Btw, Starbucks has come out with one of the COOLEST cd’s ever.  I am totally buying it, and I don’t care if I could get the tunes for free… Noone around here listens to this stuff anyway.  More on that later.

Go To Hell

First off, I would just like to say that as soon as I wake up in the morning, I am going to the gym.  For an hour, minimum.  I ate at Red Robin today, and then for some INSANE reason, got a freakin’ donut from Baker Ben’s later.  Why?  Who knows.  :p
I really wish that people would stop lying.  Tonight I heard the saddest thing; the sound of someone’s heart breaking.  I felt so sad.  Why are people so cruel?  Don’t they see when someone loves them? 
I am not a fan of people right now.  Not that I ever really was in the first place.


Ah Saturday…  Well, I certainly kept myself busy today.  Ate somewhere new, walked around and enjoyed life around me, bought a few used books, some used cassettes too, attended an engagement party (and I was asked to be a bridesmaid!  First time ever…), and hit the gym.  I am pretty tired. 

Nothing on tv.  Got the fire going.  Time for sleep lala


Old habits die hard. 
But, I am killing them, one by one!  I want to be happy.  What does that mean?  Well, I can’t speak for anyone else, but I know what it means for me.  I want to be happy with my boyfriend… That means that we share great times together, and not so great times too.  And that’s alright, because we have each other.  I want to be happy with my friends.  I want to be able to meet up for lunch, or shopping, and have a good laugh together.  I want to be happy with how my life turned out… I don’t want to pine for yesterday, or what could have been.  I want to be in the present, and be happy with what I have right now.  And you know what?  I am.  True story. 
My goal for myself is to not let the little stuff bother me.  I need to work on this.  Time is precious; I don’t want to waste it.  I will remind myself the next time I am getting pissy because I can’t find a clean apron for work, or if I am tired, but I want to spend time with my beau.  Once the day is gone, it’s gone… that also means that I need to take care of myself, not to run myself ragged either.  If I am truly tired, then yea I should take a nap.  Do what I gotta do.
So, mark my words…

Sandwich Time

Say Anything just started.  Great movie. 
Been trying to compose a poem.  Got some lines, but that’s about it…
My anxiety has been high ever since I got to work, and even though I am home, it is still up there. 
I spoke to a friend back home a long time ago, and she gave me an update on one ex that I was totally glad that I broke up with.  He was a total loser… I just didn’t see it until later on in the relationship.  I was… 20 at the time, and he was… maybe a little bit older… I can’t remember now.  23, I guess. We went for far longer than was necessary, but at the time I didn’t know better.  I thought I could change things.  Well, you can’t.  I couldn’t.  He wasn’t going to change for me.  He was who he was.  I keep forgetting that about people.  You can’t change people.  No matter how much they say the love you, they are who they are.  Take a tip from me, if anyone actually reads this… Stop stressing about people.  I am currently working on that.  There is no point in bothering to try to tell anyone to change.  Just accept them.  Then, decide whether or not you want to remain in association with them.  It’s that simple. 
I make it complicated.  But yea… it’s that simple.
I am not getting any younger.  I don’t want to do things simply because time is running out… That is ridiculous.  I basically have 6 years left and then I am too old to bear children.  Wow, really?  I honestly forget how freaking old I am.  I am still unsure of whether or not I want children.  Then again, I believe in being married, with a decent income, of which I have neither.  That might explain why I am still unsure of the decision to have children…
Muuuust stop spending money.  I bought this collar, and it wasn’t cheap.  I caught myself looking online at stuff.  Nope.  I am saving up for a new tattoo.  I have plenty of stuff.  
So apparently my botched industrial on my right ear still lives.  I was fiddling with my hair in the mirror at work the other day, and noticed that the one side of the piercing had a black spot at the piercing opening.  Hm.  I picked at it, and it was ewwwww.  A bunch of crud was trapped in there.  So… if stuff was getting trapped, then… was the piercing still open?  It had been years… I had some 18g rings lying around, so when I got home that night, I tried… Yep!  Still open.  I used to have a 14g in there, but whatev.  I was just glad that it was still open!  I looked it up, and apparently it is called a helix.  Hm.  Ok then.  🙂  Better to have jewelry in there instead of grossness geting stuck in there.  I might see if a 14g would still fit… If it does, then that would be best…
Need a sandwich.  Time for a pb&j!!!

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